Hey love, I wish I'd known! Remember a certain "with you in your dreams". It always helped me in those times. I don't really know what to say except that I love you and it will get easier. It is so true that she's in a better place now. And I know know
that your mum understands. As does your grandma. I bet she's thrilled that you're getting on with your life and following your dreams. As am I. I'm so proud of you, you've been so brave.
Everyone else has said it better than me, so I'm not going to try. Just know that I love love love love love love love love LOVE L.O.V.E. you with bells on and a cherry on top and I am sending every single drop of good wishes and mystical hugs and prayers and good thoughts I can muster from this little body of mine.
As for being less than inspired, I'm the same, spending too much time watching tv and not enough time with real people, although this week I've seen nearly all my family and worked my butt off! (No joke of a lie). I wish there was someway I could inspire you from over here. Hmmm... *strokes beard*. Well, in my creative efforts to show you a) what talents I have to offer and b) how much I miss you, I have made you a little movie to remind you of just how silly we can be when we put out minds to it.http://smg.photobucket.com/albums/v19/torijwatson/?action=view¤t=LynneandTori.flv
Oh yes. Bonafide. We're so hot.
I know new friends are hard. I don't think I've made any new friends since moving to Leeds. It's just hard and all I want to do is run back to Newcastle and hang out in the Tyneside. But soon they'll be old friends or at least current friends and it will be easy. You're a beauty of a gal with gallons of what I like to call shabaam!!! Ahem... charisma, charm and personality!
We are fragile, if we choose to be. Or we can knock everyone dead from ten paces and make that big impression. You have already made that impression. Like you're never going to forget how wonderful your grandma was, we're never going to forget you at all. Heck, we couldn't even if we wanted to - you're a part of me, like my pancreas or my butt cheeks. I need you in my life.
I LOVE YOU!