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(no subject) [Jun. 3rd, 2006|10:27 pm]
now zac is married?!??!??! In atlanta too!?!?!?!
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(no subject) [Jun. 1st, 2006|08:30 pm]
it's been a tough month because my grandma passed away. I have never felt so far away from home the moment i found out. It's strange because i wasn't really sad for my grandma, i was happy for her because she gets to be with my grandad again. She started getting real ill after he passed, and i think she slowly dies of a broken heart more than anything else. She was 88 the day she dies, so you can't really ask for more can you?he lived a long, eventful life full of love and family. I'm going to miss her. I was so sad for my mum. She spent everyday going 3 times a day to look after grandma, she was her home help. I felt so sad for my mum because she's dedicated so much time and energy into keeping grandma happy. I hope she doesn't feel like a failure like she did when grandad died. My mum is such a saint. I really wanted to go to the funeral, to say goodbye and hug my parents and sister, instead i was selling overly priced prom dresses to overly skinny teenagers with more money then sense. It's been hard to forgive myself for being so far away at a moment that is meant to be about family and pulling together to greive. I know she'll forgive me though.
I miss my friends all the time....
laura, i miss the drama and the laughter through tears we used to share, watching extreme makeover and top model together, i don't have that comfortable silence with anyone here except shane, and that's different;)
tori, i miss the way you'd inspire me to paint or write or read something i wouldn't usually pick up. I have spent waaaay too much time in front of the box instead of going on little mind adventures and being silly for no reason.
mia, i miss having someone to talk frankly with, to say whatever is on my mind no matter how many expletives are in there. And someone to talk to about the latest vogue or glamour.
nic, i miss you being around, no matter how far you go i always feel like we're sisters or something, like everything goes back together straight away, i'm at thge stage where it's an effort to be with my new friends, because they're new. And i can't replace you guys, so there's a hole therey'know. Does that make any sense? I spent 18 months of my life winging about how i wanted to "gt to america alredy", i took you all for granted. For that i'm sorry. I want you to know you guys have never left my heart or my head, and i miss you every day. I guess that's what death does to you. It makes you realise how fragile you are, how you could disappear, and the rest of the world keeps turning.
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a note from across the pond..... [Apr. 15th, 2006|08:34 pm]
[Current Location |atl biyatch]
[mood |happyhappy]
[music |james brown- doin the best i can]

ok, i'm still alive. I'm working all the hours under the sun so turning on the computer requires too much energy when i get home. The job is going well, in my first two weeks i've opened more store accounts then my whole department put together, i've had customers write in and thank me for helping them and i was also ranked no 3 on the top sellers list of the whole store, and in a 3 level department store that's a pretty big feat, so professionally i'm doing good, and should be referred for the management program asap!I don't like the women in my department too much, but there are a lot of people that i do like in the shop so that's ok, i actually made 2 very good friends akia and sarah jane, one black and soulful, the other is as white as the snow and needs a little excitement in her life, they're good people.
Me and shane are still going well, no complaints there, except he's got cronic hay fever so he can't go outside at the mo which is really sad seen as though the weather is 90 degrees! I'm dying! Sooooooo hot!
We spent last weekend at the dogwood festival which is an arts and crafts extraviganza! There is also a dog show and fun stuff to do like rock climb and watch belly dancers, but most people tend to just enjoy the sunshine, buy art and get more and more drunk. It's a blast, the whole thing is in peidmont park (which isn't far off central in new york as far as atmosphere is concerned). I'm not really doing much else, just lovin livin. hope you guys are all doing good. i miss you all the time. I work next to customer service and there's the willow tree figures for sale, they always make me think of you guys.
oh and the kittens are now close to cats. gorgeous and purrry and lovely.
oh and can someone tell me if the movie "A.T.L" is released in england? If it is, go see it because it's a good reflection of atlanta and i've been everywhere in that movie!!! I can't wait for "goal" to be released next month, pretty views of geordie land!
peace xx
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the wedding [Feb. 14th, 2006|12:48 pm]
[mood |artisticartistic]
[music |j-lo of all things]

i'm officially married, and i have to say it is a huge weight lifted off my shoulders. The blood, sweat and tears paid off and as soon as i officially chanmge my name i will be Lynne Guyan Tanzer. I like the way that sounds. The wedding was wonderful, the place looked gorgeous, shane looked gorgeous, hey, even i looke dpretty good with my little tiara and pretty flowers going on. My mother made the day pretty hard, but that was to be expected, so did shane's dad, but again, what can i expect? Apart from a few minor hitches (LIKE THE SERVER DROPPING THE WEDDING CAKE, HA HA!) everything went really smoothly. we ate, drank (soda) and were merry. The best ending to the day was had when me and shane booked into the four seasons honeymoon suite and drank champagne and ate chocolate covered strawberries before going to sleep. It was all those cliche things that your wedding day should be (minus the doting mother bit). My dad was so happy, he looked so handsome. Hey even my brother came with his girlfriend, who is lovely. I'm glad laura caught the boquet because she came from so far away and had to put up with so much shit, bless her. I felt like the prettiest girl in the room, and kept smiling like a maniac every time shane looked at me. And now i'm fitting into my life plans. Next step driving and job! I hope the government gets back to me soon. They've cashed the cheque, so fingers crossed i'll be a career girl yet!
I wish you could have been there with me for the big day, but when me and shane get back to blighty we'll have a party, hey i might even wear my dress again! Hee hee.
Happy valentines everyone, hope you all get smooched by someone special. I know i will! ;)
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the best day of my life..... [Feb. 6th, 2006|10:01 pm]
[mood |highhigh]
[music |ribbon in the sky]


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is it wrong...... [Jan. 19th, 2006|10:39 am]
[mood |contemplativecontemplative]
[music |dawsons creek is on tbs]

......to want pretty handbags?
......to miss spending too much time in intermezzo?
......to want to still buy shoes even though we're saving up for "more important things"?
......to want ice cream after dinner?
......to want sex 3 times a day?
......to be obsessed with marc jacobs and chanel?
......to want to read every fashion magazine every month?
......to not go to the gym when i feel like poo?
......to be scared to see my family?
......to wonder wether i've made the right choices?
I don't know?
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update [Jan. 18th, 2006|10:04 am]
[mood |busybusy]
[music |the sound of peachtree rd]

me and shane went to the aquarium on saturday and i have to say it was awesome. I've never felt so physically close to the animals before. I mean you go to the zoo, and there are monkeys, but they're far away monkeys, or there's a cage in fromt of you, but the aquarium, because it's glass means that you feel closer to them. My favourite part was when me and shane sat in one of the windows in the "ocean" bit. A hammerhead shark swam by us, so close that if the glass hadn't have been there i could have sat nose to nose. I also felt that close to a sea lion too. It was amazing. The fish were beautiful, there were penguins and seals, and whales. It was such a great night. I can't wait to take my parents, they'll flip out! I'm nervous about them being here. I'm trying to plan things for us to do so that they have a good time, and we don't spend a fortune. I hope they have a good time, and they don't drive me crazy. I can't wait to see my sister! We're gonna go shopping and gossip, and talk about fashion and art. it'll be cool. I can't believe how quickly the time has moved, it feels like i've been here 10 minutes, and yet it's been nearly 9 weeks. I thought not having a job would make my days slow and i'd be bored all the time, but i'm not. I always have stuff to do.
I ordered the wedding cake yesterday, and i got the favours today. I'm excited to see how everything comes out. I've put so much blood, sweat and tears into this wedding that everybody better have a smile on their face. I've also done a shit load of ainting for the house recently, i've made 3 10x10 canvases for above the tv, and i'm working on some oval canvas for the bedroom, but i need to sort out bedding for the bedroom first. I hate the stuff that's on there now, so i want to change it to something luxurious and gorgeous, the nicole miller "honeymoon collection" is the way i think i'm gonna go, but i have to get it soon because it's being discontinued soon. I'm totally rambling, so i'll go, love to everyone.
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(no subject) [Jan. 12th, 2006|11:29 am]
having a heart attack every dasy because I alone am arranging this wedding. I need some help dammit, not just "whatever you want honey" from the fiancee and "Well, if that's what you really want" from mam. EEEEK! If this wedding sucks it's all my fault
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such a good day! [Jan. 5th, 2006|05:32 pm]
[mood |happyhappy]
[music |the hardest button to button!]

ok, so my initial thoughts going to talk to shannon about my job were "eeek! I hope she doesn't think i'm a fool, because i've only ever had one job interview in my life and i'm bound to screw this up". But no, we talked in starbucks for about an hour and then because she's "upset she didn't have more time to talk to me", she hands me a pass to the apparell mart. IMAGINE! Clothes, jewellry, bags, purses, lush fabriuc, beads etc, etc, all at wholesale prices for me to buy!!!!! I almost creamed my pants (sorry!). I got DKNY be delicious HUGE size for 25 english pounds, if that! I got my headwear for the wedding, and some gorgeous earrings, seriously, i had to leave because i would have maxed out the credit card, it was amazing! Shannon was really awesome too, we talked about my options and wether it's a good idea to do wholesale or retail. It was really exciting to talk about it. Really good day.
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(no subject) [Dec. 25th, 2005|11:42 am]
merry christmas to all.
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